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VERSE 1
Sat through that first lockdown, trying to keep my career going
making fire rubbing stones, no lighter fuel just me blowing
patience, frustration, boiling outside and beef with the neighbours
everyday yet another grief and another project cancellation
making P was hard enough now poison waters in the stream
gutting out my industry, gold-rush towards live-stream
Zoom gigs with latency, wi-fi’s unreliable.
while everyone’s banging out Netflix, my focus on survival
kept a routine with discipline, got fit, learned new things
but my head was floating like a balloon, towards a wall of drawing pins
mad moments of doubt kicking in, had to kick it out and keep kicking on
outside it was kicking off, pent-up people out of jobs
anaphylaxis in a hive full of bees, gave up on nightly news briefs
untold conspiracy theories, unsure now what to believe
meanwhile I’m trying to get P, pay my bills and keep it all going
but I’m pissing in the wind, whichever way it’s blowing
CHROUS
Bored, round the house I’m in doors
another week a new law
a broken record in thought
how long we doing this for?
I’m going mental
go and boil the kettle
sit down settle, could be worse
so what you whinging for?
VERSE 2
A mate of my dad’s once told me, that where there’s war there’s money
there aint a war but in the Amazon there’s a working-poor and they’re on zero hours
packing parcels, driving vans, competition now barley stands
high-street now a no-go, betting shops and pay-day loans
Saturdays, school holidays, bop to town back then with your mates
good times but what do kids do now, when they can’t even leave their house?
encouraged to grass on the neighbours, old-bill in the local fields
felt like a dystopian film but this one was real
I’m looking out the window, wondering what way the world goes
mug of tea in my hand, phone mum and dad and hold my wife close
could be worse I guess, roof on my head, wardrobe full of clothes
say a little prayer and look to the air, could do with a little dosage of hope
text Conrad, he said we got to keep going
he’s right, by hook or by crook I’m sat in this room with a book and it’s open
minute by minute, day by day, week by week, we set little tasks
and in ten years time, we get through this, I’ll sit with my wife and I’ll raise a glass
CHROUS
Bored, round the house I’m in doors
another week a new law
a broken record in thought
how long we doing this for?
I’m going mental
sgo and boil the kettle
sit down settle, could be worse
so what you whinging for?
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I’m a niche in a niche artform, why would I stress about a fanbase?
I’m a needle in a hay-stack, where not a lot of people like hay
that’s a (st)raw fact and I’m ok with that, I do this because I like it
the best things in life are abstract, like a pineapple on a cyclist
I do social media and yea, I could probably do a lot more
but when it comes to working out what to do, I get overwhelmed by the thought
I’m overwhelmed by the sheer amount of content that’s up on line
and I’m meant to be one of them vying to occupy your mind
there’s a finite amount of time that people have to spend watching things
there’s bigger voices, with bigger arms and a bigger reach than me
it seems if you scream loud enough the drawbridge will open up
when the promised land on the other side is probably just as fucked
I don’t wonna play that game and even if I did, I probably wouldn’t
my status from the off would be like going to war with something wooden
I waste time worrying about saying things that I probably shouldn’t
when the goalposts shift like shit, after laxatives in a pudding
sometimes I think back to all the jobs that I did
and laugh when I’m whinging thinking things could be worse than this
got mates that probably think I’m a prick, when I’m getting up on high-hourse
when they’re getting up at four, doing a job that they find shit
I moan about filling-out, hard questions on funding forms
ranting on about, who writes these forms and who they’re written for
when really I should be concentrating on making the things that I wonna make
like writing bars where I embody everything that I flipping hate
‘shutup mate, you’re boring’ I’m boring mate, I know
but what do I do about it, when so much gets my goat?
I wish that I could be one of them that says that they don’t vote
because they’re all a bunch of C-words, like corrupt, conniving and coke
It’s a world of easy wins, putting things in boxes and bins
but it’s never all that simple, good and evil what about in-between?
yin and yang what happened to that? Like Mufasa on the mount
there’s a darkside in the picture and I’m Simba trying to figure it out
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